Monday, December 30, 2013

New Calendar Year - Oh Hello, 2014.

So, Witchy New Year is Nov 1st. But, the calendar year is almost at an end, and I can't help but reflect.

Where I was last year at this time is SO very different from where I am today. I was distracted and uncertain about just about every facet of my life. I was floundering, and poking at everything. This theme of uncertainty sort of carried out for most of the year actually. To be honest, I think I've only started to feel a solid foundation under me the last few weeks. So, Yay for that.

This year I let go of some fear. Scratch that. I let go of A LOT of fear. And that opened up so many lovely things. Yes, doors closed. They closed shut tight, never again to be opened. That makes me sad. But there is learning there, too. It all happens just as it should.

I spent so much of this year wearing my own armour. Being tough and untouchable in some ways, although I made myself extremely vulnerable in other ways.

I'm being vague. I know.

I guess, after this looooong long year, I need to say I am happy and satisfied where I've landed. I feel back on my path, although it's changed COMPLETELY from what I thought it was before. We are always where we are supposed to be, I guess. But I just feel so much more solid in myself after all of the dust settled. I feel like it's safe to have purpose again. It's safe to have goals again. It's safe to ask for help again.

It's safe to look ahead again. And I'm liking what I see coming.

I'm babbling. New Year.

Sunday, December 15, 2013

Bah Humbug.

Holy. I have been missing from here for a while!!!! Where have I been???
Well, I was busy working on this:
Completed my Reflexology course, and have been working at a Wellness Centre in town.

And, I've been busy making these:
I have a little kiosk in a local space downtown. Been making stuff to sell for extra cash!

And I've been busy touching a bunch of stuff like this:
Working part time at a thrift store.

And been busy reading cards, using my Super Powers for Good and Healing:
Reading cards and channelling in my Reflexology office.

Also, been shovelling shit tonnes of THIS:
Snow. We got at least 50cm over  Wednesday, Thurs, Fri this week. It hasn't stopped yet. It's now Sunday.

And finding the time to read some good stuff, like this:
A bunch of great books came into the thrift store recently. I have stacks beside my bed and in my livingroom that are dying for me to OPEN them.

So, as you can see, life is pretty much the same as usual! I go in cycles, right? It's ALMOST layoff time at the thrift store, which means more time for me to do healing work, more time to read, and craft... And shovel.

However, I think right now what I'd really like is a hot bath. Today I battled with Bah Humbugs. I woke with a cold sore. And then happily I was talked out of using my credit card to buy stuff for the kids for Christmas. All year long I do so well with being on the soap box about de-materializing this time of year. And then THIS week comes up, and I think "Oh Gawd, I got 3 things for my littles, spent under $50 each... will they be disappoineted???"

The kicker is the littles don't "do" Santa anymore. They are 11 and 12.  So, there's no need to keep that charade up. My plan for the week off is to drag out their old toys and PLAY with them. To watch movies, and give their feeties Reflexology. To Bake. To pay attention to them, to look at them, to connect and talk.

I can DO this.
You can't get me, commercialism!

And, I am thankful for people who love me, who talk me out of my own doubt...