Seed Cataloges Are IN

Seed Catalogues are in.

After going through my seed stash from last year, I really REALLY don't need to buy any new seeds. Except for some Zucchini (how did I save ZERO seeds last year?) and also green pepper. I have TONNES of lettuce seeds, mesclun mix, beets... I have about 10 seeds each from about 5 different types of tomatoes. Lots left.

Provided all of them are viable. Which you just know they won't ALL be.

So, I should TOTALLY place an order.

Totally.

Oh Hey January 2015

How are we 2 weeks in already?

I cleaned out the CRAFT CORNER OF DOOM, and reorganized it, so, like, I can actually access my sewing machine. I've got a few craft shows booked and THAT'S pretty  motivating to get back to work!

There's been a part of me that's been freaking out a bit (as I do EVERY year at this time.) that says "Hey, maybe you should get another job." Sigh. Because I'm going to find the time for THAT somewhere. (I'm part time at a Wellness Centre as a Reflexologist, I read tarot cards in the office as well as at parties, and I'm at a local thrift store part time.) I LOVE all of these things that I do. It's just that time of YEAR, when it's quiet all over.

Why is it THIS time of year I decide to go over my budget? Mental Self Flagelation.

So, it's NICE to lose myself in the making of monkeys and dolls. It's nice to completely ignore the dishes and laundry and housekeeping in general, and instead sew while episodes of Supernatural play in the backround. I love that show.

I have a show at the end of the month at the Huronia Museum in Midland, but I'm only reading cards there - no dolls or toys. Another show booked for the first day of spring. That's pretty exciting. And when I have enough stock, I'll get a table at one of the Farmers and Artisans markets going on locally.

I'd leave you a picture, but I currently cannot find my camera charger. Avoiding housework. ha!

Little Scotia Lori. 

And, The Ball Drops.

So, the big opportunity, that was to answer the 14 year request, FELL. Hard.

I cried a little.

And I'm left wondering WHAT does the Universe WANT of me? I'm mostly convinced, after a week of sitting on the disappointing news, that what I'm to do is GIVE UP this goal, and refocus elsewhere.

So.. then I think.. Well, where? Feeling a little lost.

I haven't done any writing in weeks. I haven't touched the piles of stuff in the livingroom, hallways, basement, since getting the notice. I was disappointed. Now, I'm just scratching my head. Everything lined up so perfectly, so prettily, just to slam me with a bitter pie-in-the-face.

So. Right now I feel like I'm just carrying on. Still working on Saving Myself, and my kids along with me.

Hoping the Universe reveals what it wants of me, soon.

Lori.

Oh my GAWD, The Ball is ROLLING!

Got some CRAZY big opportunity put in my FACE by the UNIVERSE this week. Loud and Clear. So many things have led up to this moment, and everything feels RIGHT. I'm so freekin' excited, and I'm working on manifesting the NEXT STEP for it.

So, today I spent hours purging with a girlfriend here to help me. She really lit the fire under me, and made me make the decisions of "keep or donate." Today she focused on the kitchen, and I touched some THINGS in the livingroom. We did two van loads to the thrift store, and bags of garbage were filled. I also marked some filled boxes with CRAFT SALE.

Tomorrow I'm in the basement. I will need to get some more boxes from the grocery. So exciting.

ALSO, I've been going over some training I did some time ago, to boost my home and not-at-home businesses. There are free videos, but the paid parts of this are totally worth it.

Free Videos on Building Your Home Business.

It's a weird thing transitioning my home business from a crafty and artistic side, to more of what I'm doing with Tarot and Reflexology. But it does feel good to purge. The Tarot and Reflexology are bringing in more than enough. I don't have to craft for money anymore. Having the extra space in the house feels so good.

Lori.

Liquidating the Craft Stash.

Here we are. The last week of August. My craft corner is still a disaster. I've been bringing embroidery to stitch and bitch, and that's about it. My heart just isn't in it. I'm busy with Reflexology, with the psychic readings, and with the thrift store.

So, I'm going to liquidate. all the craft shit I haven't used. There are books here just collecting dust. There are buckets of hoarded material. Scrapbooking stuff and jewellery making stuff, wooden pieces for painting, doll making stuff, etc etc etc.. it goes on and on. And it's taking up space. I figure it'll be easy to keep the embroidery stuff since I use it, and the canvasses and paint.

Clearly I'm going in a different direction these days. And by these days, I mean the last year. This is the second year I haven't done market with crafty stuff. I was busy doing the other things that the Universe has pointed me towards.

AND, if ever I decide I really really need any of those things again, because my income depends on it, I work at a thrift store. They will be easy to aquire.

It feels freeing. Now that I have a plan in place to get some money for all the things. Because that was a bit of a hold up. I have a credit card. It is full. I would love to put some money on it and get it chunked down. I've made no headway on it in the last year. And if anything, I've been leaning on it for gas and food in the lean months. I think I'm still catching up from last summers Lunacy.

L.

blaa blaa blaa.

So. Little Scotia has been all about THE INTENTION of creating. But, It's half way through the summer, and I haven't sewn a stitch.

Well, that's a fib. I've done some embroidery. But I really havent completed anything. It leaves me feeling a bit disappointed in myself.

It's been 2 years, and I'm realizing that I'm REALLY having a difficult time juggling kids and home and work on my own. Or maybe I'm just reviewing the past with rose coloured glasses? I'm getting no sewing done. However, I'm 10 hours a week at the thrift store, and about 15 hours a week at tarot and Reflexology. Which really doesn't sound like a lot, but my days are chopped up into little pieces. If I have an appointment at, say, 11am, I will be incapable of doing anything in the morning but wait around for that 11am. I'll be done by 12:30, or sometimes 2, and the rest of the afternoon is SERIOUSLY spent waiting around for 4, when I will start dinner.

It's all in my head, I know.

And the Universe has repeated to me last week, over and over, that I MUST SAVE MYSELF. There will be no lotto, only my own genius and action to work on getting ahead.

My brain doesn't do very well with the division, I think. I seem to recall, when I was crafting and only doing markets, I was earning more in pocket, than I am now, juggling all the things.

I keep checking in with the Universe about the Little Cottage House that will be mine... Sigh.

Working on raising my vibration to meet it. But, I also have to change something to raise my income. And still maintain house and family.

I'm ranting. I should be sewing. But everyone knows you can't work on anything when your vibration is low.

Going to listen to some music. And ponder.